Has it really been 18 years?

This time of year is really bitter sweet for me.  The reason being that on the 9th back in 93 I was in a horrible car crash.  My friend Brian and I had been out for a joyride but things went very bad very fast.  We flipped several times.  Which twisted the car into a pretzel.  Brian lost his life that night and for some unknown unexplained reason I survived.  I will never forget the aroma of that night.  How cold and how loud everything was then stone silence.  I think back of the events and there was nothing I could have done.  Brian was driving since it was his RX-7 twin turbo.  Then a short two weeks later my little brother crossed over into eternity on the 30th.  Both of them 17 years old with what we call "their whole life ahead of them".  I have had several thousand nightmares about both situations sometimes the bleed into each other.  I know that was one of the most trying times in my faith.  It's the words of my youth pastor the echo in my head every time the crap starts hitting the fan.  After my brothers funeral we were talking and he said "Nothing will be harder than this."   There have been painful moments since then but he was right.  Everything compared to that moment of time have been easier.  For a simple fact that Jesus walks with me.  We (Jesus and I) have a incredible relationship.  Knowing that even though this month is scarred with pain it also holds the moment when I gave my life to Jesus.  After climbing out of the twisted beer can of a car.  I was alone and in that cow field I met Jesus.  I quit drinking, smoking pot, and cigarettes all the same time.  I gave it all to Him.  So here I sit with a wife 3 boys and all the other stuff I never thought I would have.  18 years seems like a eternity.  We talk about moments that are unforgettable and time we cherish.  Well these are two of those times that I will never forget.

#nonetheless

I think we can all agree that God answers prayers in ways that we may not agree with.  Sometimes He answers in the totally opposite direction.  Which I have to admit that drives me CRAZY!!!  But anyway God has answered a prayer of mine.  I have been praying a prayer for the past 5 years or so.  Just waiting and standing and watching the whole thing just fall apart and crumble and turn to dust.  But none the less I have continued to pray and speak God's word over the situation.  I mean that is what the Bible says to do.Eph.6:13 "...having done everything, to stand firm." so I have been doing just that.  Now here we are watching God answer in a way I wasn't aware of until recently.  Now funny thing is some people are like SO excited for the answer we got but others are like SO pissed!!  It is just funny that they all are "saved"  and are very active in their churches.  It just is very frustrating to listen to all the bullcrap!!  I really just wish that people would just trust that we Carrie and I can hear from God and follow Him no matter where it takes us or what He asks us to do!!  I know I am ranting but the question remains.  Would God answer in a way for everyone to agree?  Probably not so I guess our response should be to trust God and the ones that are being obedient to what they hear from Him.

#redletterchristian

I think it's time to start operating in the power and authority that the RED letters meant us to.  Think about if we scratch that if I started to actually take the RED letters for real then things would change!!  So here it is the moment in time when EVERYTHING changes yet again.  You see I have to start lookin at the one in mirror instead the ones in the photo of my eye.  It has to start here.   No I am not saying that I am the only one.  It's time for us all but you see I am the only one responsible for me.  So here I go jumping off the deep end gonna push envelopes that didn't even know existed.  I just can't sit here and do nothing listening to others shuffle their cards.  I am playing my hand going all in.  So in the words of the Paul if you wanna see how to live WATCH this RED letter christian!!